The purpose of your life!

I don't talk to many people after my accident. It's hard to cope with everything that happened to me. I'm only 17 and been through more then a 40 year old will ever go through. I haft to wake up every morning taking pills for my depression. What helps me cope? Gaming and talking to other people with similar problems. I am close with so many member on ngu, they have helped me with a lot! I hope all of you live your life to the greatest. I went down the road that was the crash site of my accident. I can feel my friend's sprite in my heart, She is watching over me and I just wish she was here. I am so disappointed that I was the one to survive, I feel guilty. I was not even wearing a seat belt and she was?!

The depression that comes with me everyday prevents me from going anywhere. I feel like i'm lost, broke inside. Recently I have found a girl that keeps me happy though. But I feel like this accident will haunt me for the rest of my life. I know most of you go through depression, but the depression of loosing someone is even worse.

No one wants to die young, everyone wants to live. I feel inside that she is there just not visible to the human eye. It's importance to live is more important then anything in the entire world. Do I wish I died? No, as everything happens for a reason. Things are hard , life is hard just like a video game. You have to try if you want to beat you . Give it all your talent and faith.

This is just to show you that ALL of you have a impotence in this world. Even if you get bullied, harassed, hurt mentally, face depression you still have a purpose to live. Do not give up! Live strong, and never look down. Find a girl or a friend that can keep you happy! :)



Before my Accident (Majorly Depressed, I did commit but did not fall through, notice how I never smiled 1 year before):



During my accident ( RAWR :D, Dont judge I was on all kinds of pain meds! ):



After my accident ( Notice how I smile now:) ) :